My blogging has been almost non-existent of late and that's almost like any oxymoron. Blogging is supposed to be an outlet...a place to share, to vent, to think, to feel, to care, to love...you name it! Every emotion we own can be expressed in a blog.
And yet sometimes, I feel like maybe I should keep things to myself and not put them out there. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, step on anyone's toes, have anyone worry about things that might just be something I need to work through on my own.
But I see so much help from everywhere. If you've read anything
about me, you know I haven't always been in an easy place. But I have always pulled myself up and I'm still here kickin' and screamin'!
Right now I have a couple of things though that I'm struggling with and I would love some advice. I am fully aware that advice, given or taken, is very subjective. But I love thinking outside the box and maybe I just need to see a bigger box!
The first thing is...I am very unhappy where I live. I inherited my mother's house and it is paid in full. I cannot express how thankful I am for that! But I'm in a not so good neighborhood...for example, this is my next door neighbor's yard.
That's just a small example of what goes on (or doesn't as the case may be) in my neighborhood. So I have decided that it's time to move. I have been so on the fence about this because I don't have a mortgage payment but... There is so much more that I've always had and I want to be in that place again... I don't want to spend the rest of my days HATING where I live. So that's where I need some unemotional advice. Is that a wrong decision? Is that a stupid decision? Or should I just do what I can to be happy? STRUGGLE!
Also, yesterday, now get this! Are you sitting down? My ex-husband's current wife called me and started spilling her guts. I''ve been divorced since 1988 and they have been married for almost 12 years. Well, times are not good for her and guess what! The story is not much different from mine from over 20 years ago for me! But she asked me if I would make a statement referencing some things I really would rather not go into here, but it made me uncomfortable. Although, there are tons of things I could say, I left all of that behind me a long time ago. But I hate that someone else is experiencing some of the very same things that I did. Should I help her? I don't know. What do I do? Again, STRUGGLE!
I am doing some really cool things in the house though to get it ready for sale. There is painting going on and replacing switches, sockets, vents...unbelievable how much better things are looking! I'll post some before and after pics in a day or two along with my 2 more recipes from the MckLinky Recipe blog.
Please, if you can find it in your heart, I would really appreciate any advice you have to offer.
And on a super happy note, Abby is home, Stellan is home and Amy B and Philip B are maintaining! I love you ALL!
